Crossing between the mountatins

Do you ever get really frustrated with God's timing? Do you ever feel like things are never going to happen for you? I do! Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry at God... just confused. I know that God has not only a plan for my life, but the perfect plan! Sometimes I just wish that I could figure that plan out, or that He would show me more of the plan. I do know that the times when I am truly in despair and needing something to hold onto, God reaches down and takes hold of my hand and gives me a small glimpse of the ultimate plan for me.

I guess right now, I feel kind of like I'm standing in the valley between two HUGE mountains and all I can do is look forward at the next mountain that I have to defeat. I look behind me and I see an ocean of all sizes of mountains that I have already walked, fallen, climbed, inched, and ran up and down. Those mountains of course represent all the trials and up's and down's that I have experienced. However, this mountain that I'm facing now is much bigger than any other that I have seen. It's huge, I can't even see the top!! In fact, I can't even climb it right now... not sure why, but I just can't! Which means, that I'm back to the exciting time of waiting time, which I have come to love (sense the sarcasm).

I know that God wants to use me during this waiting time. It's just that being a human, I start to get frustrated and forget about God, and start thinking about me. I then start informing God that His plan for me is all wrong, and surely He must have messed up or gotten me confused with someone! Than I stop and notice my face starting to grow warm from embarrassment, I notice that I have tears streaming down my cheeks because I have shown my lack of trust in my best friend! Not only, have I become this selfish being, but I have proven my lack of faith! The thing that blows my mind is that no matter how selfish I am being, God is always there holding me and giving me the ultimate peace!