Psalm 121:2

Yesterday I had one of those days when you start to wonder, "is this really my life". It started out with me having 30 mins to get two children dressed, fed and in the car for our 20 minute ride to the doctor. Than all craziness broke loose at the doctors office. I ended up holding Rowan in one arm trying to bounce him up and down so he would stop crying and Marlee in the other arm trying to calm her down. The poor doctor just kept right on beat despite my craziness and calmly and very quietly told me that Marlee had an ear infection and I needed to follow these specific steps. Unfortunately, all I heard was Marlee has an ear infection. Anything past that was all screams. I heard nothing else.

We finally made it out of the doctor office (room number 3, to be exact) and went back out to the waiting room. This is when Marlee decided that she needed to be comforted by a complete stranger. She decided to crawl up in this sweet lady's lap, meanwhile I had to pick my jaw up off the floor because my EXTREMELY shy girl was now cuddling with a COMPLETE stranger. After I apologized and told Marlee it was time to go, Marlee of course refused and I had to pry my screaming toddler from the strangers arm all the while Rowan is screaming his sweet little head off in his car seat.

Isn't it funny how God can so easily keep up humble through our children? The poor lady could see the exhaustion and frustration on my face and asked if I needed help, and me being me (stubborn and prideful), declined. So of course on the way out the door Marlee trips and starts the screaming all over again.

Maybe at this point you think I'm being a little dramatic and trying to make the story sound more interesting.. NO. I'm not.

The day continued on with a 20 minute car ride where Rowan screamed THE. ENTIRE. WAY. HOME!!!!! The poor man at Starbucks told me I needed 2 extra shots in my vanilla soy latte..probably because he could hear Rowan screaming in the background.

Needless to say, yesterday was probably one of the worst and hardest days I have had as a parent. The scary thing is, I know there will be more days like it.

To make the day worse, I also had to cancel plans with two good friends that I was looking forward to seeing.

As soon as Eric got home I literally met him at the door with the kids and locked myself in the room upstairs and bawled my little eyes out. It was funny because while I was crying i kept thinking "gosh, i just feel so unprepared and like I have no clue what I'm doing or how I'm going to muster up the courage to do it all over again tomorrow". I told you, kids are such a great way to keep up humble.

Well, I'm here to tell you I made it through. Here I am, almost 24 hours later and God has given me a new strength and the ability to face a new day. A couple weeks ago my friends wrote this verse down for me in my Bible Study and I have come to love it.

"No, my strength comes from God, who made heaven & earth & mountains." Psalm 121:2

I love it because it pretty much sums up how I am physically able to continue on. It's not because of my own strength or ability, it's because of God. Oh and I love the last part where they make sure that you remember that this is the same God who made the heaven, earth and mountains. So in case you may think, he's not qualified to provide that type of strength, think again. He made the heaven, earth and mountains, so I'm pretty sure He's got you covered! :)