Wednesday, January 10, 2007

What do you desire?

First I have to start by saying God answers prayers. They may not be the answers that we want, but He does answer prayers! I secondly want to say that I am learning to desire the things that God desires. We all know the verse:

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart."

However, I think what many of us don't know.. is that when God says, "He will give us the desires of our heart", that does not mean that we will get whatever we want. It means that when we desire the same things that God desires for our lives.. he will acknowledge those desires and give them to us.

I can really relate with this verse. Ever since I was little my one true desire and goal in life was to be a mom. Seriously, ask my sister, my mom, my friends, my husband.. anyone! :) That is the one thing that always fascinated me and when I saw someone that was a mom.. I would say to myself.. "that's what I want to be."

Now, since I've been married for a year and a half, I told God, "Now is the time to give me the desires of my heart." There are a few problems with that statement! First of all, how selfish do I sound. God does not owe me anything. I owe Him! Secondly, I can honestly say that my motives for wanting to be a mother were all selfish. I wanted to know what it felt like to have a baby kick inside of you. I wanted to know what it felt like to give birth (I know most women would probably punch me for saying that). I wanted to have a baby shower. I wanted to see a child and pick apart his features and say... oh he/she gets that from their dad/mom. These were all things that I wanted.. not what God wanted.

I am now working on wanting the desire that God has for my life.. not the desires that Shelly has for my life.

Silly me.. to think that my desires would be better than God's! If you are reading this, please pray that I would whole heartedly want the desires that God has for my life!! :)

4 comments:

yourblogreader said...

I desire to be closer to Christ in 2007.

Shell*Belle said...

That is kind of what my New Years resolution was too!! :)

Kneesypoo said...

Hi! I can't believe you just now found my blog, but I'm glad you did! I'm getting ready to update it so you'll have to read it soon!

Chuck and Jenny said...

Shelly dear, I know I'm way late getting to this post, and I hope you find it, but you know that this is very near and dear to my heart. My long story short - if we would have had our biological children years ago when I wanted and had gotten what I thought we deserved (children).......
I would have missed out on the blessing of growing to be content with who I am, with my faith, and with my Ethiopian babe coming sometime this year. I learned the hard way that we are in no way guaranteed children. Some are called to be a family without children. Some are called to foster care. Some are led to various types of adoption programs, but it's all in God's time. I know it's easy for me to say that since I'm on the other side of the fence now, but I've been there.

God has called you and Eric to foster children. Whether that purpose is to lead you to your child or just to show Christ to a certain child (or children), know that just because it's out of your hands doesn't mean it's out of the hands of the One who created us.

I love ya!
Jenny